It’s been over a year now since I’ve started this journey, and through it all I stand a humbled man. 

I see now.  How things can change…how life can take you for a ride and end up leaving you miles away.  How you can go from having everything and nothing…to having nothing and everything…all at once.       

I was walking around dead inside…like many of us do.  Impervious to the world as I continued to withdraw, watching everything fade away little by little. 

The darkness was welcoming.  Enveloping.  Overtaking and consuming. 

However it left me grasping for light.

Reaching out blindly, feeling my way around my life and hoping to find answers. Answers to questions old and new as well as ones I didn’t even know I was asking yet.   Who am I?  What am I doing?  Where am I going?  The whole schebang.  Through all of this soul-searching I found one thought that wouldn’t leave me alone.  That I was alone.

Any of this sound familiar?  If so, do you need help?

According to the National Institute of Mental Health, an estimated 21 million adults in the United States suffered at lest one major depressive episode in 2020. Were you one of them?

It may not be easy to admit, I’ll admit. I suffered from depression. Hello… My name is human.

At times I’ve felt that I was all alone, despite being surrounded by others.  At times I felt I wasn’t in my place, even though I was at home under the covers.  At times I’ve felt I wasn’t me, that I couldn’t see.

I feel like my eyes have just opened.

This journey has been one of enlightenment. 

One of finding a way to channel the emotions that I’ve been experiencing. The thoughts that I’ve been thinking.

A way to vent.

I am but one man looking for a way to express myself. A way to process everything. If it helps another then it’s a blessing. If someone reads and realizes they’re not alone, or it opens their minds to other possibilities…then it was worth it

Let us begin.

One thought on “Reflections

  1. nice post! educational and a good read! I am on here for the same reason… I need to vent and maybe through that it will show someone that they are not alone in their daily struggles!


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